From my journal — January 7, 2026
I used to say
I was afraid
I doubted myself
To be on my own
To be without my partner
I said,
“I am afraid…”
“I doubt…”
Now, I can see
I believed
I could not survive
I would not thrive
On my own
AND as I recognize this
I also realize
This is no longer true
This is
no longer a belief
I have fears. I have uncertainties. I have doubts.
And
They no longer control me
I have to put in the work
And
I am ready
And
no longer
am I fighting
against a
deeply-held
fundamental
belief that
I am doing
the impossible